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hi I'm Beth I spent most of my adulthood

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believing that nothing creative was ever

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going to come from me then a little over

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10 years ago I began exploring with

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various art media by the time I retired

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from teaching five years ago I had found

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my Niche I was regularly painting in

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acrylics and becoming really passionate

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about working with mixed media when I

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met Nance see I had gotten away from my

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regular art practice and didn't know how

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to get myself back to it I was really

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missing it so my original goal was to

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get back to

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creating but it became evident in our

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initial meeting that my housekeeping

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habits were in my way Nancy and I worked

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together to shift my shame and

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self-judgment about the house the more

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progress I made in that area the easier

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it became to allow myself to create

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anyway I saw many other gains throughout

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my work with Nancy one is that I focused

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on being gentle with myself and I

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realized that often even when I thought

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I was being kind I could still be even

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more gentle I could be even more on my

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own side Nancy's questions and guidance

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empowered me to find new and solid ways

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to come back to myself and what was good

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for

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me another gain is that now more and

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more often I remember that what really

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matters is how I feel while I'm doing

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things in theory I knew those things but

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working with Nancy in this program has

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really reinforced so that I feel like I

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know it differently now in my soul and

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in my heart than I did at the beginning

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of this

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program but of all the

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gains that I had during this program the

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biggest and most influential thing was

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in nany's approach to working with me

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not only did Nancy not cookie cutter me

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like there was no lock step this is the

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next thing we're going to do she also

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made me feel so safe and so comfortable

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being exactly who I am exactly where I

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am in this moment that in our six

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sessions together I found myself sharing

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details with Nancy that I haven't even

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shared with my therapist of over 10

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years the level of trust that Nancy

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created for me was beyond anything I

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could have imagined and I truly believe

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that that deep sense of safety made

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everything that I got out of this

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program

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possible I would also absolutely

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recommend Nancy to others working with

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her has taken me to places and to depths

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that I did not expect I would recommend

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her to anybody who wants a different

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relationship with their creativity but I

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would also recommend Nancy to anybody

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who wants a shift in their relationship

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with themselves